I was once desperate in life because of my illness and I thought getting a man would be the solution. Not only that, I imagined everything possible or impossible that could get me out of my trouble. So I visited dating sites, seeking a man, because at that time I thought a man would save me. I once thought in my life that getting a rich man was what I needed. I think I was ignorant at the time and I didn’t know myself. A lot of women don’t believe in themselves, so they think that a man is needed to solve their financial problems. I remember in 2010 when the world cup was being organized in South Africa, I thought there would be a lot of white rich men there. I wished that I could be in South Africa at the time, because I was still living in Congo DRC. I said to myself: “if only I could get a rich white man that could help me be financially free”. That’s what I thought was the solution. Being ignorant is limiting, being ignorant is deadly. What you don’t know can kill you. So later in 2014, If I can remember very well; I was thinking that getting a man could help me from all my troubles. I was sick and desperate. I was desperate thinking I would never make it. I was broke and a man was the only thing I could think of. When I was sick, I had insomnia and that led to thoughts that I never thought that I could think. So I said to myself, because this insomnia is severe and I don’t know what to do, maybe I could go to consult a witch doctor. So the imagination was that the witch doctor could transfer a chicken’s sleep from its brain into mine. Can you imagine? Being desperate is a terrible situation to be in. When you are desperate, you tend to be naive and vulnerable. But what I want to tell you now, after being saved from my condition is that you should put your trust in God. Not only that, you should know yourself, you should know your identity. Because I didn’t know myself well I started to think that a man was the solution. I was so wrong. What’s the difference between me and a man? We are equal and we all have skills and talents. I needed to discover my own gifts instead of relying on an outsider to help me. Now that I know myself, I know that I’m capable. I have everything it takes to win in life. Don’t be desperate my friend, trust and believe in God.
All my love, Christelle Jesus Love.
Christelle Jesus 